The Shades Of Grey

I sit with a million hearts pounding around me, residing in flesh and bones puffing air in and out. I can hear them when I close my eyes and sit in silence. I try to match their pace, I lag behind. I try to catch up, I fall further behind. I feel like I am running towards something vague at the other end. It seems closer than it actually is. As I reach out to hold it, it vanishes and I feel a strong grip around my throat. Something from a dark hole sneaks behind. I can just see the shadow, it is pitch black and too small. It approaches near, I can feel my blood getting colder. The shadow grows bigger. I can feel the grip around my neck getting stronger, I am losing sight of what I almost caught hold of. I feel choked as it pulls me towards itself inside the darkness. The gravity is too strong to resist. I try hard to fight but it is all in vain. The hands are too strong, the battle is draining me of my strength. There is a sudden weakness and the light of my life seems to flicker. All my life plays like a movie in front of my slit-wide eyes. The pain is severing and seems unbearable. It peaks and then, it is all gone to dust. The grip loosens and the pain eases. It all calm, I am not scared. I feel like I can breathe now, but just don't feel the necessity to do so. It feels light and calm. The light is no more and it is only darkness that surrounds me. I am not scared. This darkness is not fearsome, it gives me solace, it soothes me, it is a bliss. My lashes seem to heavy to open, the slits are now closed. I feel drowsy. There is no fatigue, just sleep. A long peaceful sleep.

Suddenly, I am awake. All this, just gone in a snap. I feel sweat on my brows, like it was a nightmare. It seemed so real yet far away from reality. I think about it. It was just those dark days that bred such thoughts in my head. Happens to all of us, does it not?

I starkly remember someone telling me, life is just black or white, rest of it are just shades of grey. Mine gave me solace. Find out yours.